MERRY CHRISTMAS

I was just having a conversation, if you can even call it that, which made me want to write a bit on this day. It's the 25th of December, also known as Christmas Day, and I just want to give my thoughts.

First, I want to make clear that I'm not trying to be overly negative. I can see why my views may be seen as negative, but I see it more of realism. So, here it goes. Part of this will certainly be dunking off the shitshow this year has been, but whatever. I've thought this way for a while, and the general consciousness of 2020 has peaked in terms of the beliefs I have about Christmas, as well as other holidays.

The simplest way for me to convey my thoughts here is to say that the whole idea of Christmas is a façade. I won't even go into the pagan roots and potentially demonic spirit of it. The fake cheer has always been over the top, but this year it's just been sickening. Think, for a minute, how ironic it is to have people wearing masks and walking far away from people everywhere you go, and at the same time acting all preppy and shit, like the majority of people are just holly jolly for Christmas. It's like, doesn't that get tiring? When you work with people, you already have to put on a fake persona, but now that's the norm everywhere. For me, what really topped it off, was seeing my family this morning as I came back from a run. I pull up to see my parents, sister and brother-in-law, and nephews all anti-social distancing and wearing masks in the yard. Mind you, it's finally cold, for maybe the 4th time this year, as it was a high of like 36 the entire day, with large parts of it being freezing and below. Now, any sensible person would think for a second or two and I dunno, exchange a bag of gifts and do it online in the comfort of your own home. It's not like both the entire family isn't living in the same neighborhood right now. Or, you could be somewhat critical of the whole thing and think of the actual odds that anyone gets sick, much less dies, from spending a few minutes in the house. My folks are finished, mentally, but the thing is I know hundreds of millions, if not billions, worldwide are just as susceptible to fear-mongering.

On a slight tangent, directly related to the last sentence, I was talking to one of my "friends" a little while ago, and the level of stupidity was higher than I've ever seen in her. She mentioned a day or two ago that she had a new TV, and it's clearly been working considering how scrambled her brain is already. I mean, she's already not particularly smart as it is, and her brain's certainly been damaged by drug use over the years, but she was super slow today. Oh yeah, the point I was gonna make... she was saying some dumb shit about the amount of people she's had in her apartment compared to her friend that lives directly below her, and something about the big scary virus, with its .0-something death rate. So yeah, just the fakeness of it all upsets me. I try to ignore it, in general, but the fucking music and faux cheer takes its toll after a while.

There's a spiritual component as well, so I'll cover that now. Much like I was trying to explain above, it's unhealthy to partake in satanic rituals, not to mention the cognitive dissonance people display in acting happy when they most certainly are not. My brother was mentioning earlier today that initially Christmas was 100% a jacked up holiday, and kids hated it. Thanks to capitalism and brainwashing, it's turned into a day/season to waste money people don't have on things people don't need in the name of a devilish holiday. The other spiritual part of all this is the "schedule". Most people are drones and won't actually consider what's going on, but all "year" it's people sitting around waiting for these fake ass holidays to eat too much, get wasted, and waste money on stupid shit. It upsets me, this year in particular, that it's clear things are not going well, yet every godforsaken holiday, without fail, sees the "normal" attitude return. That's where the cognitive dissonance comes in. I can't pretend to be happy when I'm not. I don't tolerate that shit at jobs, and I don't tolerate that shit with other people. And another thing, this whole "I CAN'T WAIT TIL 2021, IT'LL BE SO MUCH BETTER, I HATE 2020", as if a switch will magically be flipped and things will return to normal. Yeah, that's not happening. For me, the goal for this year should have been look within, see where you need to fix things, and start to work on them. Yet, as usual, people decide to distract themselves with stupid things and focus on whatever bullshit is on TV/online, and live shitty lives doing nothing to ascend in any way. I'm not gonna sit here and act like I believed in the December 21st black people super powers thing, and it's funny that so many bought in, but there's 100% a benefit of turning to spirituality. I make a clear distinction here between this and religion. Religion is not spirituality. You can be spiritual and believe in God or whoever you pray to, but going to church and reading the bible alone doesn't do anything. Perfect example is my parents.

Enough of a rant. I'm at the point of wanting to find like-minded individuals to start a community. No more bullshitting. Girls that fuck with me for what I am, dudes that believe in my vision. Community is what doesn't exist anymore, and that's what needs to change.